2 posts tagged “life”

Haven't posted a blog for the longest time, except the other night, the eve of my monthsary.. There's not much happening in my life. It's been pretty boring actually. Same old issues, same old routine.

Today, I just deleted a post. I just thought it's not right... it's unfair to him. Maybe I was just overwhelmed by the attention Gio gave me... but it's done now. Put my feet back on the ground. It's still "my baby" that I want, I miss and will always love. I know it's harmless going out on group / friendly dates but I still feel like I'm not being honest.

I know I have my friends and I'm contented with them. I don't have to force myself to move on... Only time can tell if we're destined for each other; the same way time can heal the wounds if we're really not meant to be.

Maybe they're right... maybe I just have to give him time to deal with his past. I know there's no use wasting time wondering if he's goin out with other women or not... Coz I trust him enough when he told me he's not gonna do it.

I know he still loves me.. I can feel it. And I believe one day, when he's ready and healed, he'll come back to me. But until that someday comes, I'll patiently wait for him. Coz I know my heart is not capable of loving anyone else, except him.

Enough of my sentiments... Of course I have other activities. One of my bestfriends invited me to try for a commercial shoot. At first I thought I was too old to go back to modeling. I used to be into that when I was in high school 'til college. But now, I feel I'm too old for it. But what the heck.. So I went. And it was a fun experience! I forgot how fun it is meeting other people and becoming instant friends with them because of the bonding while waiting for our take.

I'll be posting some of our pictures. Unfortunately, I'm not allowed to say what product it's for.

So there goes my life. I'm trying to move on... somehow I already did. But I know he will always have my heart. I just hope he still feels the same way too. I hope he knows that I'll be waiting for him... and that I'll continue loving him... in silence.

Love doesn't always end up with a happy ending...
Sometimes, it ends up with one conclusion. But even though it ends up with bitterness and full of heartaches, I would do it all over again...

Love is pathetic, naive, full of sorrows;
Lots of patience, millions of understanding;
Overflowing with pain...

It makes our life miserable, makes our life suck...
Love ruins our life...

But I guess a life without love is not life after all...