Brattinella Exposed

Having moved on with my life, I edited some of my posts (especially the more personal ones). Funny, it felt like I was editing my LIFE.

While editing, I couldn't help reading them again... Just over a month ago, I couldn't seem to let go. I was so full of hope that things would get back to the way they used to. Despite all the advices of me letting go, I found it hard to listen to their advice. I had to take my time healing. Now, almost 2 moths after the "i need space" thing, I'm all good. In fact, I found a "special someone" who is patient enough in helping me recover.

Of course, I can't rely on other people to help me recover. It just so happened he came at a point in my life where my mind was definitely ready to move on and let go, but my heart was still reluctant. Now, I finally have both on the same level.

Good luck to me!

I know I already posted this a couple of weeks ago. Back then it was just a favorite song... Now I'm singing it for someone... Gio.

Thank you for coming into my life, for bringing the "sunshine" back in my life... that life could still go on. Thank you for giving me the support and strength to let go of my past. For making me realize that it's ok to let go of things. Thanks for bearing with me, for understanding me, and for always being there for me even if it was painful on your part.

Gio

I remember so well
The day that you came into my life
You asked for my name
You had the most beautiful smile

My life started to change
I'd wake up each day feeling alright
With you right by my side
Makes me feel things will work out just fine

CHORUS

How did you know
I needed someone like you in my life
That there's an empty space in my heart
You came at the right time in my life

I'll never forget
How you brought the sun to shine in my life
And took all the worries and fears that I had
I guess what I'm really trying to say
It's not everyday that someone like you comes my way
No words can express how much I love you

I don't know who wrote this but I like the message.. makes sense...

Some lessons are best learned through pain. Sometimes our vision clears only after our eyes are washed with tears. Sometimes we have to be broken so we can be whole again.

If God meant the day to be perfect, He wouldn't have invented tomorrow. So don't worry if today wasn't perfect 'coz we still have tomorrow. And if there's anything in our heart that feels right, go after it, no matter what it takes.

Maybe I could have loved him better...
Maybe he should have loved me more...

Maybe our hearts were just next in line...
Maybe everything breaks sometimes...

We'll never know what could have been...
Maybe someday he'll regret it...

Maybe someday he'll think it was the best decision he ever made...

But maybe someday he'll see me smiling and happy...
Along with someone who has my heart.
'Coz someday, someone's going to thank him for letting me go...

A friend sent this to me via sms last night... and I couldn't help relating to it sooo much that I thought of posting it. After almost two months of "riding the emotional roller coaster" because of my ex, indeed, someone has come along, giving me reason to smile, giving me something to look forward to.

And now I find myself at a crossroad... will I let this new person in into my life? Or will I turn my back and wait what happens; is there still reason for me to hang on to my past relationship? If there's one thing that I need now, it's CLOSURE. It's the only thing holding me back from completely moving on.

Maybe one these days I'll find the answer...

Love doesn't always end up with a happy ending...
Sometimes, it ends up with one conclusion. But even though it ends up with bitterness and full of heartaches, I would do it all over again...

Love is pathetic, naive, full of sorrows;
Lots of patience, millions of understanding;
Overflowing with pain...

It makes our life miserable, makes our life suck...
Love ruins our life...

But I guess a life without love is not life after all...

It hurts to miss someone who doesn't know how to miss me...
It hurts to love someone who doesn't love me back...
It hurts that I'm still keeping him inside, even if he's no longer mine...

But most of all, it hurts when I know I have to let go and move on but my heart is too paralyzed and stubborn to do so.

Do you know what's the most painful thing in the world?

- It's when you both love each other and yet you couldn't patch things up...

Where's the pain?

-It's when one decided to end it up...and the other has no choice but to give up.

I was listening to my mp3 playlists (and arranging them as well according to genre), when a thought hit me... I had posted a lot of songs in my blog but never my "love" song for "him". It was my song for him before, when I first realized that I was falling in love with him, until now... 'coz somewhere deep in my heart I still love him... "I need you boo, I gotta see you boo.."

Here it is, audio and lyrics of "With You"

Chris Brown - With you

Chris Brown

After hiding and recovering from one of the darkest phases in my life, here I am, ready to face the world again! I chose to give myself a new look... and voila! THE NEW MOI!

Last Saturday, me and my girlfriends took my friend from Canada out. It was the first time they saw me with my new look! Here are a few pics we took:

Roma n moi!

That's me with one of my bestfriends, Roma.

...with Stella and Joelin

Moi with another bestfriend, Stella and her officemate, Joelin...

Rod, my Canadian friend

... and last but not the least, Rod, my Canadian friend, who claims that he really had a great time! He also admires Filipinas for being very nice gals!


To wrap this post up... not bad for my first "night out"! I'm thinking of changing my profile pic as well... to complete the "new moi" image. The past weeks were one of the most trying times in my life... and I have to thank all the people who love me, my family, my friends, for being there for me. THANK YOU! Most of all, I have to thank GOD, for blessing me with a strong faith and giving me my family.

To YOU, you know who you are, my feelings for you never changed. You will always be in my heart. I know I have yet to find "my light at the end of the tunnel", and I know there will still be a lot of trying times to come. But somewhere deep in my heart, a part of me will always belong to you; and part wishing you'll be that "light".

KUDOS!